VERY CONFUSED: help a brotha out?

Im male and ive been straight for the majority of my life, just recently ive kinda gotten sick of women...I find women to easy 2 read, and very predictable emotionally. Im not trying to brag but im a manly man with a defined body, yes im loud and pretty stupid but that just comes with the package. Getting with women has never been a challenge as far back as i can remember. Im getting sick of the routine, meet & f**k. Not to mention that chicks are way too delicate, even if they say they like it rough. I think im ready for a challenge, im completely serious. I think I might be gay but not like touching another dudes wang gay or kissing gay. I just want to be the pitcher